katy

i am happy with my situation here. i realized now how depressed i was in nyc. i guess i just cant get enough of large groups of people. but the lack of talking to taylor, and people from home in general didnt make my situation in nyc any easier. just happy with where i am right now, i guess thats what im trying to get across. yay.

i think ive officially become nocturnal. i cant sleep during the night. but the second it gets light out, im like POOF! and im out. ill get up and go to classes sure, but the second im back its back to bed for katy.

and the damn heater is driving me up the wall with the clanking and hissing-ness of it. its like a milion years old, chirst! get a new one already! girlkyle and i had a discussion about heaters recently. hmmm...i should call her, see how shes doing. not now obviously.

i think im home december 18th. and honestly, i couldnt be happier to leave this freakin city. its too damn cold.

HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!!

that is all.

mysterious skin is the best fucking movie ive seen in a really long time.

it was raw. it was beautiful.

even michelle trachenberg was alright.

but joesph gordon-levitt is the sexiest hustler, but thats not the reason i enjoyed the movie so much. just a bonus.

this weekend was great. getting away from the city and seeing some old faces made me extremely happy.

will has great friends, im really happy he has good people around him.

and greg....greg is cap'n crunch peanut butter crunch with a dunkin donuts coolatta with chocolate.

that is all.

this is mainly for the westside5ers that were having our lengthly discussion about what characters we would be in tv shows. im sure you all remember that well. i know i do.

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dear mr. dude,

i have a test tomorrow. and for the life of me i cant get myself to work. Its not like i dont have a TON of time to do it, i just cant. I've also come to the conculsion that im an asshole. but coming to that realization has not forced me to do something about it. which it normally would have. instead i embrace it. i think its this city. its so cold. everyone and everything that i walk by, just cold. and then occasionally i get to go into starbucks and get a HOT pumpkin spice latte and sit within warmth. only for a few hours, but it makes me happy and i dont want to leave it. but starbucks always closes, as does the warmth. and im back on the street trying desperately to regain that warmth somewhere.

why is it that when im on the phone with everyone im happy as a bird, even when my friends realize that it must be hard, i cant convey it to anyone? so i suck it up, because im a big girl. At least thats what I want to be, instead i think im still that little girl that would curl up against you when i didnt want to be with my parents. huzzah, my parents might have actually fucked me up! Even though I say that i dont believe it, but its nice to pretend i could explain what im feeling right now and blame it on my parents.

Its much more fun to live in a fantasy mr. dude.

what do you want to know?

nothing, it meant nothing. sorry i said anything

love, katy

dear mr. dude,

today i went to class. slept through class. understood the movement of the sun. went to eat at fatoosh, again. went to the public library, twice. found rose in front of radio city music hall. put on a warmer turtleneck...it got very cold very quickly. lent rose my scarf. talked to taylor about the meaning of boys. explained taylors "rules" to rose and kyle. went to other music and ate at noodle bowl zen. tooooooo many crunchy rolls, in honor of wade, even though the rest of the party had no idea it was a tribute. found pat at the sandich place, and yes i did spell that right. somewhere in between i bought a duane reade dvd of the pagemaster. went to kyles to watch it. rose fell asleep sometime during the horror section. came home to write you this letter. it feels better knowing i have someone to write to. and to think, i took me two years to figure out i could write to you.

love, your adoring katy

ps. i am keeping a list of taylors rules as we speak. someday, when there are more than two, i will write a book about it. it will be a bestseller.

god damnit. why cant january be here already? im really disliking it here. i dont even have enough courage to go to my classes on a regular basis. i dont like the people. and i know ill get shit from kyle and pat for not going to class this afternoon. i dont want to get shit for it. i just want....i dont know. for someone kind to be here and so i wont have to sit alone in the enclosing darkness on a particularly windy day and to tell me a silly story that will make me laugh my ass off. so i can stop thinking for like 2 SECONDS!

and calling people is out of the question. however much i love you all (and i do) i just cant bring myself to do it. nothing that you guys are up to are nearly as depressing as what im doing, plus im rather enjoying wallowing in my own self pity. ive never had a really good excuse to be upset, so i would always be happy. now i have a reason and im taking full advantage. so there.

mike was here this past weekend. i enjoyed it a lot.

i dont want to go to studio.

ps. i just reread this, and i am so depressing, please dont read this, its not worth your time.

i miss paris and the two sexies!

i wish i was in new orleans, but thats another tiring conversation that i dont want to have again.

kyle put me in my place tonight. ive realized that there have been so many times that people just nod at what you say because they dont want to start an argument. he doesnt give a shit. its refreshing.

i had so much fun doing this! try it, see if you can crack the code!

dun dun dun


http://www.randomhouse.com/doubleday/davinci/index-ctc.html

hopefully this will work because i dont really know how to work a computer...

first night drunk in nyc. tried and failed to hook up....again! i think im starting to get desparate!

oh wait, that was so four years ago!

im alive and in houston until further notice.

in case you dont watch the news, a hurricane hit new orleans. severe damage.

maybe be back in LA on friday

just a news flash for all you people.

woohoo! another hurricane! this city rocks, all my friends have left already and my parents are just willing to chill. so im in town if someone needs me, at least until there is a mandatory evacuation of orleans parish. sooooooo excited!


ps, my house is really cool i hope it doesnt fall down.

its been about two months. so really i should have something totally ridiculous to talk about. but i dont.

saw zara today. shes, of course, completely adorable and i hate her for that. because i was happy being on not speaking terms with her. that was a constant for about 5 years now. but now, oh no, she goes and plays it cool and i actually enjoyed her company.

on another note, my father attacks me on a regular basis about how im not living up to my potential. whatever the fuck my potential is, i wish hed hurry up and tell me instead of the psychobabble he pulls on me.

dad: why are you doing this?
me: i dont know
dad: i dont know isnt an answer. think. (pauses for about half a minute) i just dont get it, why dont you just do what i ask?
me: because i dont want to. because i dont like it and i like doing things my way.
dad: but you never get anything done your way. your obviously not listening to what im saying.
me: i am listening to you.
dad: then answer the question.
me: which one?
dad: why are you doing this?

sense the repitition?
so because of these neverending arguements ive come to realize that im scared to grow up. so instead i blame my parents. but can someone honestly tell that they dont do the exact same thing i do. why am i the weird one? the one that has issues.

my parents are getting me tested for ADD and im to start going to therapy because they are convinced im depressed. and my arguement against it. nothing. because FUCK IT it would be nice to chat with someone once a week and occasionally take pills which i can then sell off to anyone who actually needs it. and it this way i will make money this summer and my parents will be off my back! ah ha! YOU, YOOOOU

oh and that just reminded me that i am in love with robert deniro.

my friends page isnt working. its stuck on taylors "what does your birthday mean" only the whole update doesnt show up.

im lost

will got into RISD

guess i should be happy. :::happy katy puts on a smiling face::::

do you believe it?

havent updated in a while. nothing to serious to say. spent today hanging with some cool people, my kinda people.

after italian: hung out with ben like i always do for an hour before dan and mike show up for lunch. will and josh joined us.
after lunch: spent the next 4 hours in the park with mike, josh and ali, although josh and ali were only there for about an hour of it.
we all went to dinner and ate with michael quitana where josh and ali decided to start a "food fight" and i put that in quotes because their food fight consisted of throwing crumbs of cookie at katy.
after dinner i spent about 3 hours just fucking around on the computer, meg running in and out of the room before i decided that i wanted ice cream. on the way to get ice cream i saw claudia studying and chilled with her for a bit before girl kyle called. i convinced her to get off her lazy ass and come chill with me. then kyle louie came out and joined me for a cigarette. then johnathan. i discovered that johnathan, kyle, greg and bradley were studying in the business building. so i decided to get the ice cream and come join them for some moral report (they were all writing final papers)

josh came up behind me and scared me and after i screamed "fuck me" we went to get ice cream. on our way we bumped into will, tim, michael quintana and mike trying to get rid of joe. had a quick discussion about the a capella group they saw before we realized that mcalister market might close, and we ran to get the ice cream. i got cherry garcia. then josh and i parted ways and i went to find girl kyle. she came with her brand new apple but she said she already broke it and that i needed to fix it. yeah right. so girl kyle and i busted up their work party for a good 2 hours and enjoyed playing garageband on her computer. she made a song for me "katy's song" its very good you should hear it sometime, it kinda sounds like a ton of 3 year olds trying to play the piano, drums and trumpet all at once. after girl kyle and i decided to go on an adventure tomorrow we left the work party and went our separate ways.

johnathan said we were like the sun and moon goddesses and that we were his muses. he hadnt started working at all until we got there. thought that was sweet.

louie looked clean today, i think he took a shower.

so to conclude i hung out with every single person here that i enjoy: ben, mike, will, josh, dan, ali, claudia, tim, girl kyle, kyle louie, johnathan, greg and bradley. oh and a little bit of rose when i was with claudia i forgot about that. just rereading these names makes me think of how much i like my friends here.

oh, sidenote, does anyone know if someone from marlborough is coming to tulane? probably not but i was just wondering if im going to have to break the new girl into the new orleans world.

favorite quote of the day:
ali: "well you can spot people with anorexia just by looking at them"
::everyone nods their heads:::
katy: "yeah, its kinda like leprosy"

yeah, go me, of course i needed my favorite quote to be about me, otherwise i wouldnt be a narcissist now would i?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NO NO! i was early one day and now i dont want to call and be late today, plus youre probably out living it up in northampton. woohoo!!!



i love you and miss you!


love, the ever fantastic and highly loving friend

katy

everyone is aware that harry potter book six comes out July 16th and the goblet of fire movie comes out around the same time right?

if you didnt know dont tell me. just pretend like you did.


SOOOO EXCITED ALREADY! 100 DAYS UNTIL IT COMES OUT!